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I forgive you for what you did this year. I forgive you for how I felt, and I forgive you being "the way you are," but I will never forget. I'm finally completely over it, and I'm glad that I will not hold anymore resentment toward you, and that I can move on with my life and continue to grow and learn and change as a person.
Thanks for the memories.
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So, I decided to post rather than do a works cited page or read that awful book called "Winnesburg, Ohio". I'm also going to take O-liv's advice and seperate all sections of my life and make neat, organized paragraphs.
School - It's not as hard as it was in the beginning of the semester. I just find myself not wanting to do any work. I could have studied today, but I didnt. I could have started reading the book sooner so I didnt have to do it all tonight, but i didnt and now I have to. It seems like I like stress or something because I sure am making enough of it for myself and it isnt even necessary.
Friends - I find myself unable to say what I want to about my friends. I guess a lot of the little stuff has been really bothering me lately with people. I don't know. I feel a lot of resentment towards some people and I sort of feel like everything's a mess and nothing's what I thought it would be. I do really appriciate the people who let me cry to them and really help me, or even just try to. I really thank those people who I can rely on and who truley care.
Family - We've sort of had this unspoken anger at eachother for awhile. It's getting kind of annoying. My parents are pinching pennies, and I'm being cost concious/cautious/cheap, and my brother and sister are trying to spend it like it's going out of style. It's hard to tell two seven year olds that money's tight and no you can't by a tenth pair of shoes and no you can't have your fifty-eth beyblade. I also feel bad because a lot of our anger gets taken out on my brother. He's got ADHD and he's really loud and he doesn't behave and he talks nonstop and it's so hard. You have no idea how hard it is. My dad's brain injury isnt helping the situation at all either. Things have gotten so hard to deal with here. I mean I love my family, but it's so hard. I just wish I had someone to talk to about having a sibling with ADHD or having a brain injured parent or a parent who can't really read or spell or a sibling with... well like my sister. I try so hard not to look at the bad things that are going on, but optimisim can only hold me for so long. I hate to say this, but I can't wait to go to college. We do have our good moments here though. When it's just my parents and I and we can have an intelligent conversation or laugh about something or just remember better times, it makes everything better and not so rough.
This is a post so I can release some of my feelings. This post is for me. This will probably be protected soon.
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I missed my old site.
I needed to update.
I needed something to feel like it used to.
I needed something to normal.
It's over.
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"TAKE HER DOWN TO THE RIVER!"
Yeah, really really fun song.
I feel like I have a random post in me. Be prepared.
I really really dont want to take finals.
I really really dont want to change classes.
I'm going to miss study hall more than your life aka Olivia and Corkie.
AND I'm going to miss Alisa. =(
But today is a good day.
Baby steps.
Ew, cutting post short.
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This weekend is going pretty well, I suppose.
Alisa came over yesterday and we listened to music and pinataed, and she met my crazy family. We had fun. Also last night, I watched the village with my mom and dad. It was fun. My dad didn't like it because he figured it out too soon. My mom, though, jumped out of her seat a good three times. It was funny. She's not one for suspence.
Today I cleaned out all my old clothes to give to where ever my mom gives it, I changed my sheets, ordered stuff online, and did my weekly chores. I'm putting off my homework because I really really really dont want to do it. I have to do my whole book report this weekend and I haven't finished the book, heck i'm not even a quarter of the way finished. Finals are also coming up, and I really dont want to take those. I really need to study and ect. for it.
Alright well, I'm going to go have lunch and try to bring myself to start my homework.
Have a good day. =)
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Update:
I made a clutch out of duct tape tonight. I'm going to put lyrics on it, but I'm too excited right now, and I might mess it up. Here it is:
It's a little bubbly in most places, but I'm really super proud of it. I love it.
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